Ah, how I've missed this: nerding out in the warm summer night! It's been so long since I've actually spent quality time on the computer, not simply checking Facebook etc.

So now when I'm finally here I decided to write an update journal!

I have a shirt with the peace-symbol in it and the words "Love, peace & understanding". I thought it'd be fun to divide my journal into sections entitled like the words

Love

Oh, I fell in love... I suffered so much and now it finally paid off.

On 9th May, I was at the bar, chilling out and drinking with my best friends, as usually on Saturday nights...
And there he was, the guy I've known since last Autumn, who I secretly loved all this time.
And just when he stood up and said he was going home, I realised I couldn't let him go this time. I realised I couldn't take the pain anymore. So I yelled "Hey you!", grabbeb him by the collar of his coat and kissed him! Then, I lost my balance and fell right there on the ground :'D

And we've been together ever since

Peace

As you can see, I finally have a lot of spare time! I was so busy with studies, mostly, and now I finally can spend some free time and chill out!

I spend most of the time with my friend Pietu and my boyfriend Tuomas, but since both of them have work and I don't (lazy! ), I should have some time for myself too... That means that I might start spending time here again and get back to drawing! <3 Oh how long it's been :3

I might submit a fairly old piece, from about two months ago, but I think I'll also doodle some new stuff up ;D

Understanding

So, I graduated! I went through one of the hardest educational systems in the world (I think) and I... well, I lived!

I am now a proud upper secondary school graduate! :3

As for the future, I applied to universities, to study English or Journalism. The application exams were hard, but now they're over and all I can do now is wait for the results, which are due to arrive in the middle of July...

I'm excited about moving to a new city, starting a new life but...

It seems that I really screwed up in the home stretch: I always thought that it's good I don't have much people who are close to me and who I really love in my homearea... But along came Tuomas and stole my heart :/

Well, I've decided not to worry about it too much but rather to enjoy the time I have left!

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Brace yourself, fellow deviants, 'cause I'm back and spanking! ;D

Oh and please PM me if you want to add me in Facebook :3 I'm most reachable there! ;D

Okay, so I planned on writing this journal yesterday, but I had no idea the content would be like this!

Okay, so, I have now finished Upper Secondary School, as many of my friends already know.

I have applied to three different studies in universities, one of them being architecture (and the others are English and journalism).

This journal was supposed to be about how my preliminary assignment passed and how I must start studying for the Math exam now but...

... Turns out I didn't make it! I called them and they said "Unfortunately you didn't make it this year"

Here be the my entries:
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Well, that sucks, but I'll try again next year, with more enthusiasm and more dedication than this year (I was in a hurry when I made the preliminary assignment lol, going on a cruise and all)

Well, at least there's still hope in English and journalism (okay it's hard to get to journalism, but still.....hope)

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Okay, so the now oh-so-ironic title here, Reality Check, was originally meant as a title that tells you what this is about: what's going on in my real life right now.

Well, I mentioned the cruise!

Oh, I won a cruise and I went on it a week ago, with my two friends, Pietu and Tuomas, and it's was the. BEST. TRIP. EVER!!!

I learmed a lot about sharing a room with two men XD Okay, well it wasn't hard at all. Not for me
Seriously, never had so much fun in my life! x3 And the boys also enjoyed it, Tuomas keeps asking me "when's the next cruise?" D

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There's not much to say about my real life now, except that the university entrance exams and my upcoming graduation will be taking my time this month (and a bit on June too)

Now, on the artsy stuff!

I haven't been drawing much, EXCEPT for the preliminary assignments.

So, coming up: pictures of the architecture preliminary assignments! :33 They're pretty cute, in my opinion... Apparently not cute enough tho XD

The silver lining in this cloud: now I don't have to study for the math exam! Next year I'll apply again if my current studies don't interest me (probably English)

Talking about English, it's getting rusty! >_> I found it pretty hard to write this journal, and I'm quite sure there's some things in it that hurt your ears... Oh well

See you later, thanks for reading! (really, 'cuz this is pretty long a journal!) You get a cookie!

ARE YOU:
1.) Perfect?: Nobody's perfect, my name is Nobody ;D
2.) Tall?: A bit too tall, yes!
3.) In your pajamas?: Nope
4.) Left handed?: Nooope

LAST:
1.) Friend you saw: Diana (drove her home from school)
2.) Talked to on the phone: My friend Pietu, I think.. On Sunday :'D
3.) Person to text you: Henna, regarding some school stuff
4.) Was today better than yesterday or the same as any other day?: Well I guess today was good because I only had two hours of school and I visited a friend I've never visited and it was so much fun :3 Now that my school officially ENDS this Thursday, this might have been the last change to visit her place!

FAVORITES:
1.) Number: 18
2.) Color(s): Black (black-red and black-white)
3.) Fruit: Watermelon x'3
4.) Place: My own car and my friends' cars

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Cursed to myself because I had set my alarm clock on snooze two times and was in a hurry

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
A: My Mom told me I CAN'T draw two girls kissing... "What has that got to do with Valentine's Day?" Uhm... Valentine's Day is about LOVE, right?! Idiot -_-

Q: What's the last movie you saw ?
A: "I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry"

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: School, and after that friend's house

Q. Do you smile a lot?
A: Mostly when I'm around my friends.

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Very often... I almost always hope the one I love would be happy :3

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: Depends :--D

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: In my bed

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Earlier today, I read a really sad poem and suddenly broke into tears

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: "Gotta get some sleep before my English hearing.."

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: 9 !

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Song from the radio: Something Anything - Travis

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: Emotionally or physically? Physically not ;D

Q: What's your favorite month?
A: July <3

Q: What did you do last night?
A: Just a regular Monday, on the comp and watching TV

EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1.) Are you missing someone right now: I can't tell, really :'D
2.) Are you happy?: I'm bored... but guess I'm happy all in all
3.) Are you sad?: Nah, not really
4.) Are you bored?: Ding ding ding, we have a winner!
6.) Are you nervous?: I'm all cool, baby
8.) Are you tired?: Oh God yes...

ABOUT YOU:
001.) Real name?: Milla
002.) Nicknames? Mile, Milehouse, Miltzu [also, nicknames by a friend of mine: Pornmouse, Kisser (as in the fish)... and God knows what else x'D]
003.) Eye color?: Blue... Greenish?
004.) Zodiac sign?: Cancer
005.) Male or female?: I sometimes doubt it myself too but female
009.) Smart?: Booksmart, yep. Streetwise, no way in hell x'D
010.) Hair color?: Blonde with red stripes
011.) Tall or short?: Tall!
013.) Sweats or Jeans?: Jeans! Never ever sweats >_>
014.) Phone or Camera?: Camera.
016.) Drink or Smoke?: Drink
020.) Tattoos?: Nope
021.) Righty or lefty?: Righty

FIRSTS:
024.) First best friend?: Emma
025.) first crush?: Some friend of my brother's x'D
027.) First pet?: Tuusa <3 Since 1996 and still alive!
028.) First big vacation?: Maleme, Creece
049.) Eating?: Chicken, rice and vegetables
050.) Drinking?: Milk
052.) I'm about to: Go on a cruise this Thursday!
053.) Listening to?: Radio: Get on your boots - U2
054.) Plans for today?: Nothing to do, nowhere to go since my friends are in their schooltowns
079.) Drank bubbles?: Uhm what? BUT YES XD
080.) Lost glasses/contacts?: Nooo
081.) Ran away from home?: Not really
084.) Broken someone's heart?: Unfortunately yes... But a lot less times than I've had my own heart broken
085.) Been arrested?: Not yet, but with my crazy driving habits it's not that far away >_>

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090.) Miracles?: Oh yes I do
089.) Yourself?: At times, yes
092.) Heaven?: At some stage
093.) Santa Claus?: He lives in Finland, so hell yeah! x'D
094.) Love?: Oh I do! <3

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097.) Do you like someone?: Yes

099.) Do you believe in God?: Hmm.. Not quite sure actually

Sonic:
[ ] You're a leader, not a follower.
[ ] You're really fast and famous for it.
[ ] There's someone who admires you and stalks you all the time.
[x] You don't like to be held back.
[x] You usually know what you’re doing.
[x] You're carefree and go with the flow.
[x] Life is like a roller coaster to you, there are ups and downs.
Total: 4

Shadow:
[x] You're pretty anti-social. (OMG I said exactly these words to my friend and he didn't know what it meant x'D He said: "Why can't you just say you're not social")
[ ] Nobody really knows you, not even you sometimes.
[ ] You've lost a great friend and can't get over it.
[ ] People have called you a fake.
[x] You're really fast.
[ ] You don't smile a lot.
[x] You talk to yourself.
Total: 3

Knuckles:
[x] You're pretty short tempered.
[ ] You're gullible.
[ ] You're very strong/tough
[x] You sometimes make a fool of yourself showing off.
[x] You're very protective.
[ ] You prefer mittens instead of gloves.
[x] You're a bit full of yourself.
Total: 4

Tails:
[ ] You're very smart for you're age.
[x] You're very good with technology.
[x] You hang out with people that are older than you.
[ ] You look up to a friend.
[x] You love to play around on computers.
[ ] You have some kind of deformity that gives you an advantage.
[x] You're always the one to figure things out.
Total: 4

Rouge:
[ ] You're always coming up with sneaky plans.
[x] You'll do whatever it takes to get what you want.
[x] You could care less about people's feelings as long as you get your way.
[ ] You don't really have any friends.
[x] You're a loner.
[x] You just go place to place, sometimes unnoticed.
[x] You flirt a lot.
Total: 5

Amy:
[ ] You're tougher than you seem.
[ ] People are afraid to get you mad.
[x] You're obsessed with someone.
[ ] You're always following someone around.
[x] Sometimes you get reeeeaaaalllllyyy annoying.
[x] You don't like to be messed with.
[ ] You usually hang out with people younger than you.
Total: 3

I'm.. Rouge? :'D

The factory in which my father has been working in all his life might be closed down next Spring.

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THIS IS SO SHOCKING!

Okay, the consequences this will probably have...
I'm going to university next year, so I won't really miss much of my "lifestyle" anyways... But my parents will probably move away from this town, since Dad will be unemployed and Mom... Well she can always change schools, not to mention that there won't be much kids at school when people start moving away.

Poor Dad... He still has many years left to retirement D: All was taken from him...

For me personally, I just find it sad that I won't really be able to spend my holidays from university here, in the town that has been my hometown for whole my life...

I know, I know, there are so much worse things, so much worse fates in this world, but... This is still a huge shock for many people around here.